My name is Fahrurozi. I am a 26 year old Chelsea supporter, currently living in a limbo as football fan.
To be precise, as a Chelsea Football Club fan.
They're always calling us plastic fans, glory hunter, of all insults. Most people think that Chelsea had no fans before 2003. I accept that sentiment because there are also fans who became Chelsea fans after Roman took over this club.
Before I get to the point, let me tell you little information about mine. I've been a Chelsea supporter since 1999/2000 season. The reasons are simple yet irrelevant: I love blue color, I like Italy national team, and I also don't really fancy being a mainstream club fan. Manchester United, Liverpool, and Arsenal were considered biggest in England that time. That made me feel like I wanted to be a fan of smaller clubs such as Aston Villa, Chelsea, Tottenham, Newcastle United, etc.
Since Chelsea won League Cup and Winners' Cup in 1997/1998 season, which meant they were more than just mediocre, and had many Italians in their team, from Gianfranco Zola to Gianluca Vialli, I decided to follow it closer than other clubs.
Afterwards, the fun part began. Chelsea trashed Manchester United 5-0 at Stamford Bridge. Worth to mention that United won treble winners in previous season. Hence, I decided to be Chelsea supporter, and Zola became my childhood hero. My favorite footballer of all time.
Absolutely weird, but that's who I was, and perhaps I still am.
Since 1997/1998, Chelsea was always there fighting for the Champions League spot. As far as I could remember, they were never really challenging for the title. It is fine though, because as smaller club, there was less pressure.
I didn't expect them to win all games especially against bigger clubs, but when they win, the joy was priceless. Couldn't forget how elated I was when 5-0 happened and followed by other big wins. Then came the era of Marcel Desailly, one of the best defenders that ever wore Chelsea shirt. Also Jimmy Floyd Hasselbaink, who I consider as one of the most prolific No. 9s in Premier League era. Along with my man Eidur Gudjohnsen. Good old times.
Next, a lunatic billionaire from Russia purchased this club. I was happy, knowing that we were going to sign big names. Forgetting the fact that I could not replicate the same feeling like when I decided to be Chelsea fan. Chelsea were so good they won many trophies under Roman & Jose Mourinho. I didn't realize that such fortune could make everyone hated us.
As a big spender, we have the world that jealous of our new-arising power. Everyone hates Chelsea eversince.
Prior to 2003, I never hated, nor insulted other English Clubs in whatsoever forms. I considered rivalry as just fun part of the game. No need to hate each other. But I was wrong.
I received a lot of insults by just wearing the Chelsea shirt. It was really disgusting gesture from them. However, I didn't stop. I kept showing off myself as a Chelsea fan. A fun one, I suppose. But the hatred I received was getting harder and harder by the day.
"Am I wrong being a Chelsea fan?" I thought.
But nobody is going to believe that I support Chelsea long before Roman bought this club. Even I love Italy national team since 1994 when Brazil defeated them, long before they won World Cup 2006. Glory hunter?
They just don't care, and they still think Chelsea ruin football. So its fans.
Of so many hatred I receive in my life, nothing worse than the one that came from strangers. Internet is the place where you can express yourself. So I expressed mine as Chelsea fans. I expected bad words addressed to Chelsea coming from our rivals, top clubs, and London clubs. But I didn't expect the hate was in the form of anything else that related to murder, torture and other "interesting" shape that relating my family. It was beyond me.
Hence, I hated them. Hit back at them, and joined the dark side. Became an ugly fans with ugly words just to hurt them the way they hurt me. No more consolation for them. That's the way I lived back then, but now I've changed to be a calmer person. Because it was pointless actually, and wasting my energy.
I used to swear a lot everywhere especially on the internet, but now I'm not. I'm trying to be more positive as a grown man.
Yet Chelsea just couldn't stop his fans from having the worst feeling in the world. We have villains like Jose Mourinho with his attitude towards FA, John Terry with his affair and racism case, Ashley Cole with his antics, and Diego Costa with his problem. They're the kind of guy who don't have good reputation off the pitch. Honestly, that irks me a lot especially when you read the news. I love them, and it's always nice to have someone like them in your team. But the stories about them are 70-80% negative, disrespectful, insulting, and so on. So it's like you open the football website only to feel angered by such news.
Speaking about media, there is no wonder such hate is influenced, or even caused by The FA. The FA hates us so much for a long, long time. I believe that "campaign" that Mourinho believed was exist, definitely under Mourinho because him and Costa (and Terry to some extent) are villains to football. There is no doubt that it affected the judgment from the refs and FA as well.
Jose Mourinho, for all the love that I have for him, wasn't really helping Chelsea outside of his footballing ability. Indeed he's a great manager. A fun to watch in presser. But he's so (justifiably) arrogant in some way that people hate Chelsea even more.
He made Chelsea looked like the only team to hate compared to other clubs. His constant hatred towards his enemies (other managers, FA, Referees, physiotherapy, pundits, et. al.) didn't prove to be fruitful for Chelsea all the time. Especially if you take this 2015/2016 season as example. We're relegation battler. Put aside our poor performances and the mistakes that were made by the board, the players, and himself. It was obvious that the authority robbed us. Not a single penalty was given in 2015/2016 season so far, even for a obvious one. Not to mention there are other biased decisions by the refs.
Campaign? Perhaps so. But I don't really want to blame FA in this writings. The FA and referees are basically just human beings like the rest of us. They make mistakes and not only against Chelsea's advantage (they're just incompetent anyway).
If you treat them bad, they will treat you bad too. In our case, we hate them more than anyone else. When things went wrong, Jose Mourinho attacked them simultaneously. In many ways. Which is why they hate us far worse than any other clubs at least this season. It was unpleasant situation.
In addition, changing managers habit for good (or for fun) is another reason why Chelsea fans suffered more than other fans. We had sorrowful separation with Jose Mourinho, Roberto Di Matteo, and Carlo Ancelotti. But we also had guys like Rafa Benitez and Avram Grant as our managers.
This is a roller coaster situation that I believe only Chelsea have more than any other top clubs in top tier leagues.
Moreover, for a club that has been invested a lot in its youth and academy players. We never really give them proper opportunity. Promises to play the youth by our managers were just promises that made to be broken. John Terry is the only, or perhaps the last home-grown player that has the chance to shine to the highest level by far.
Yes, I write this post because of John Terry. I read this morning that John has decided to leave at the end of the season. Seems like he didn't get his contract extension. It hurts me so bad until this time that I don't have motivation to do anything today. How can a guy like Branislav Ivanovic and Gary Cahill, who have been average this season, get extension whereas Terry isn't?
This is not blind love to Mr. Chelsea.
He, regardless his legendary status, is still one of the best central defenders in England. If not the best. The most important thing is, he's still the best defender in Chelsea current squad. Last season he was the best defender by miles. There's no reason for him to retire yet, let alone to move somewhere else.
You could argue that Zouma is a very good one. But his tendency to sliding-tackle his opponents is prove that he's not position himself perfectly. Stuff that John always does unless when he has his days off. Since Zouma is a young lad, there's no better way to learn from the best by playing together.
Remember when John Terry played together with Desailly? I believe that's the reason why John can be the best defender. I also believe that Zouma has transformed into a wonderkid like he is today thanks to John's school of defending.
He's also a home grown, and always been consistent. A born leader, big games player, and the best goalscorer for a defender.
His behavior outside the pitch maybe questioned and criticized by the press. But his attitude towards Chelsea fans are no doubt: he's the the perfect example of Chelsea player. He cares to the fans, cares to the club. He's a born leader. Carlo Ancelotti and Fabio Capello weren't stupid when they appointed John Terry as captain for Chelsea and England after his horrible sexual affair.
We need him more than anyone because currently, there's no one as complete as him in the market.
I can't remember the last time I write such sentimental, emotional article like this. I love Chelsea more than its players of course. But since Roman took over this club, despite having so many victorious moments, I can't lie that I have experienced too many painful moments compared to what I had before Roman purchased this club. Not that I'm not grateful with Roman's kindness, he's the reason of our success. But perhaps you can make things better, can you, Mr. Abramovich?
We've been through difficult times together. But please, Mr. Abramovich, don't make things worse by letting Mr. Chelsea go.